Owned Boy

i think i’ve probably written on this subject before, as it’s been a part of my life since i became a member of the House of HotchKiss, but i think, with experience comes maturity and perhaps a different perspective, so it may be time for another iteration. As readers of this blog know, i am owned. Mind, body and spirit, by Lady HotchKiss.  As such, She owns my body and has the right to control it any way She chooses. It is no longer my cock, nor my balls…they are Hers to do with as She wishes.  There are other parts of me She owns and controls as well, for now i’ll focus on the cock and balls because lately that is where my focus has been. You see…i’m not only under orgasm control…at the moment i am under orgasm denial.

Under normal circumstances, Lady H allows me an orgasmic release once per week.  At first, this seemed restrictive as i had been used to releasing several times a week.  Now that i am used to it, it seems more than adequate, and i am grateful that Lady H allows me this use of “Her” cock for such a selfish purpose.  This control also has  an unforeseen  benefit as once i got used to it, i no longer thought about it so much, freeing my mind for other, more useful activities (such as blog writing, lol).  But every once in while, Lady H changes things up.  Just to keep it interesting i suppose.

On Dec 11 of last year, Lady H put me under orgasm denial.  Her wording at the time was “until after the New Year”.  No problem, thought i…i have been under denial for longer periods in the past and three weeks doesn’t seem too long.  And so, i went happily on my way, every once in a while contemplating exactly how i was going to bring in the New Year.  As the date grew nearer, a disturbing thought crossed my mind and i quickly pushed it away.  Alas, it wouldn’t stay away.  It kept returning and came to pretty much dominate much of my waking thoughts. The day after it kept me up most of the night, i determined that i’d better settle the question once and for all and so i asked Her:  “HotchKiss, You didn’t specify how long after the New Year i had to wait. Did You mean just until January 1?.  A smile crossed Her face.  i’ve come to know (and dread) that smile.  That’s the smile that comes every time i come to a realization that Her intent was more wicked than i had assumed.  Part of my continuing education, i suppose, about assuming things.  Her answer?…”W/we’ll just wait and see how it goes”.

So now, i’m right back to thinking about sex all the time. it’s been more than a month and there’s no telling how much longer it will be.   i have come dreadfully close to a nocturnal emission on a couple of occasions, wakening in the middle of the night with a raging hard-on and a very sensual dream fresh in my mind, my hand around my(Her) cock, and my (Her) cock throbbing in anticipation of cumming.

i am learning a good deal about self-control. Being able to stop despite knowing how badly my balls are going to ache for the rest of the day is a testament to my devotion to LadyH.  i know,  i know,  some of you reading this are going to think it’s a fear of Her that stops me, but that truly is not the case.  LadyH has never done anything to cause me to fear Her.  Her punishments are always mild, deserved, and designed not only to fit the crime but to cause me to think about and learn from the problem that caused the punishment, so no…i do not fear Her.  i often fear disappointing Her, and that may play a large part in my self-control, but i like to think it is at least 60% devotion to Her and Her wishes.  i just wish that She would wish for me to have a release sometime in the near future.   Yeah, i know…another nebulous term…just like “sometime after the New Year”.

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