Whose Body is it Anyway?

February 16th, 2010 |

Author: boy

i recently had occasion to be punished (am still under the punishment actually) for an infraction that i won’t go into here as it doesn’t really add to the post. Suffice to say, LadyHotchKiss was not pleased with Her boy. i knew i was going to be punished, but there was no way to guess which direction the punishment might take as LadyH always comes up with unique punishments. They are rarely very punishing, however. She prefers punishments which teach something the sub/slave needs to learn or relearn. She did not tell me what She wanted me to learn from this punishment. i believe She’s waiting for me to tell what i have learned and will correct me if i’m wrong. Hence, the purpose of this writing.

Her punishment was a requirement that each time i touch my body, inadvertently or otherwise…any part of my body, lips, ears, hair, face, private parts, whatever… each time i touch myself and prior to the actual touching, i am to think to myself: “HotchKiss, i touch this body because You allow it.”

i have discovered there are at least three types of touching: a. Unconscious touching – think of having an itch. Your hand will scratch the itch without any conscious thought. b. – Inadvertent touching. You didn’t intend to touch yourself, your hand just brushed against your thigh while moving about. c. Intentional touching. You actually think about touching yourself before you do so. Washing yourself, personal hygiene, brushing your teeth or hair. You actually think about doing something before doing it.

So what have i learned. For one, i’ve learned that we touch ourselves an awful lot during the course of a day, most of it unconsciously or inadvertently. i’ve learned that if you don’t think of touching yourself prior to touching yourself, it is impossible to recite a mantra related to touching yourself. There was no way i could succeed at this tasking. All i could do was the best i can.

But there was a bigger lesson in all of this. When LadyHotchKiss took me as Her slave….when She took ownership of me, She took ownership of all of me. Mind, body and spirit. i understood this when it happened, but i don’t think i fully felt it. Not deep down in my bones. LadyHotchKiss owns this body. She imposed certain protocols to reinforce the concept, such as having to sit when urinating, masturbating only with permission, and not touching my genitals except for personal hygiene purposes. She, however, can and does do with my body whatever pleases Her. She owns it. The flip side of that though, is that i no longer own this body. i can only do with it that which She allows me to do with it. No more and no less. Taking Her mantra to heart, i have come to feel the truth of this in a way not previously felt.

She has excused, at times, a failure on my part to sit when urinating, especially if i were in a public and dirty restroom. And in the past, i have fudged a bit on not touching my genitals except for hygienic purposes. (my showers had become longer and longer, and my genitals extra squeaky clean) But after this exercise, this “punishment”…no more. If the restroom i’m in is dirty and i can’t clean the toilet seat, i will hover over it as women have to do, or i will find a cleaner rest room. My showers will take no longer than necessary and my genitals will be no cleaner than the rest of me when i am done.

This body belongs to Her and i will treat it as such. Taking care of it to the best of my ability, not abusing it, and using it only in ways allowed and approved by Her. The path She has set me on is taking me ever deeper into slavery, and i revel in it.

Owned Boy

Whose Body is it Anyway?

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