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Orgasm control – Part VI

boy — Mon, 12 Jul 2010 21:15:39 +0000

This is absolutely ridiculous!!! For months i have struggled with differing forms of orgasm control imposed by my Owner, LadyHotchKiss. i have wondered constantly if there was purpose to Her experimentation or whether She was just amusing Herself. i still don’t know the answer to that, and likely never will, but now that i have been released from all forms of orgasm control, and can cum whenever i choose to, in whatever way i choose…i find that i miss it!!What the fuck??? Did i actually say that??? Did i actually mean it??? YES. i don’t know why exactly, but i do miss it. i suppose it has something to do with the control She exerts over me with orgasm control. i do crave control, part of what makes most submissives submissive in the first place. And when i am under orgasm control, Her control extends beyond Her immediate reach and right into my most private moments. It is also a test of my obedience and devotion and each time i succeed at that test, i think of Her and say to myself “i do this for You”. i have fewer opportunities to please my Owner than a 24/7 slave does and so i relish each one that comes my way.

So now i’m in a quandary. Given that i miss orgasm control, do i ask to be returned to it? That is a two-edged sword that i don’t think i am quite ready to place in Her hands (as if i have a choice in the matter, lol). i may not appreciate at all the form which a new round of orgasm control may take. After all, never cumming again is the ultimate in orgasm control, and i most assuredly do NOT wish for that.

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Orgasm Control – Part V

boy — Wed, 23 Jun 2010 21:21:39 +0000

This is the latest in a series written about my experiences with orgasm control and denial at the hands of Lady HotchKiss. As my readers know, i recently completed two extended periods of orgasm denial (at least they seemed extended to me, i understand others have gone far longer). The first of those lasted 74 days and the second was 49 days. The second was the more frustrating however because i was made to “edge” every day and to slap my cock and balls while edging. Once again, when it was finally over, i experienced a most incredible orgasm. i told LadyH at the time that it felt almost painful, as though my balls were trying to escape through my cock.This time around, the orgasm control is no control at all. i am free to release whenever and as often as i wish until further notice. Of course, further notice could occur at any time so i kinda/sorta expected that i’d be a busy little beaver, getting as many orgasms in as possible before that door closes again, but…surprise, surprise…i have gotten used to lapses between releases and except for the first day when i released twice, i really havent had much desire to release. And i also discovered that i missed edging and slapping my cock and balls so i suspect those will become a regular part of my masturbatory routine (unless, of course, She prohibits it, which i would not put past her oh-so-sadistic mind). At any rate, today i was starting to feel a bit horny and almost released during my shower, but at the last possible moment i realized that i am to see Her tomorrow morning, and as i never know what She might have in store for me, decided to wait. i can always take care of business after O/our visit. So today was a case of self-imposed edging, slapping and finally denial. She has completely invaded my mind.

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Orgasm Control – Part IV

boy — Wed, 26 May 2010 15:42:59 +0000

Yeah, i know, it’s becoming a fixation with me. But my Owner, LadyHotchKiss, keeps throwing more curves at me, causing me to experience it in different, even more intense ways. The last time i wrote of this subject, i told you that She had let me release and then immediately put me back under orgasm denial. (Orgasm denial differs from orgasm control in that under control, one is allowed to release under certain circumstances, i.e. once per week, upon accomplishing a known task, etc., whereas orgasm denial is just that…no orgasm allowed until and unless She relents).This time, She has made me “edge” right from the start. It is now 26 days since my last release, but i have to bring myself to the edge of release at least once per day. Then, a few days later, She threw another wrinkle at me. i now have to slap my cock…hard…at least five times when i am at the edge. i am still not allowed to cum. This is becoming very difficult to maintain. i have gotten so horny i am at the point where i would do almost anything to be allowed to release. Okay, okay…strike the almost. i can think of nothing that is not on Her hard limit list that i would not do at this point.
One of the things i have discovered about my cock, is that it is more painful to slap when it is flaccid than when it is engorged. When engorged, i can slap it as hard as i can and it is only mildly painful. When flaccid, the pain is much more apparent. i suppose there is a physiological reason for this that has to do with propagation of the species, such as…i don’t know…being willing to stuff a hard cock into a spike-protected vagina, i guess.

Twice since starting this latest go-round, and i presume it has to do with the edging and cock-slapping, i have had small releases of fluid. These are not orgasms, there is little to no sensation to go along with them, just an oozing of a small bit of fluid. Under normal circumstances, i see some pre-cum, both before and after i reach the edge, but this is different. Pre-cum is a clear fluid whereas this is a milky colored. And it does not have the characteristic smell of cum, so i suspect it is some of the fluid built up in the prostate that is finding its way out. Be that as it may, it offers no relief and i continue to suffer….for Her.

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Orgasm Control-Part III

boy — Tue, 04 May 2010 13:19:12 +0000

Orgasm Denial….arggghhhhh….dreaded words to a sub/slave. It’s not that we can’t go without an orgasm for a certain period of time, it’s that so much of what we do is sensual in nature. Combine the sensual/sexual nature of what we do with an edict that one may not have an orgasm does serve to heighten the sensuality, but it also produces, at least in males, an unpleasant physiological response commonly referred to as “blue balls”. i know, i know. Many of you think of blue balls as merely a myth. But i’m here to verify that it is much more than a myth. There is a heavy achy feeling that settles into the balls and groin area after a few days and it begins to grow in strength the longer one is kept in denial. The achiness is only relieved by a release of built up fluids. Now, i’m no doctor, so i don’t know if it’s primarily related to a fluid build up in the prostate or in the testes. i just know that the ache doesn’t go away, in fact only intensifies, until i have a release of some sort.

This last episode of orgasm denial lasted 74 days!! A record for me, and yes i know that many of you have gone far longer. But i can’t speak to going far longer since i haven’t been there (yet). i can only speak to what i’ve experienced, and let me assure you, i believe 74 days is quite long enough, thank you very much. The last few weeks of this period of denial were complicated by the fact that my Owner had me “edge” every morning. Edging is the practice of bringing oneself to the very edge of orgasm, then backing off. This practice very definitely affected the severity of my case of blue balls. By the time LadyH relented and allowed me to release, i was extremely uncomfortable most of every day. Of course, now that i have released, i am once again prohibited from doing so unless and until She allows it. Oh, and this time, i have to edge right from the start.
The day She relented, She told me that i could release the next morning. i spent all of that day anticipating the next morning. When the time finally came, i followed my normal routine, all the way to the point of edging, not just once, but a number of times, before i allowed myself to fall off that precipice. Even though i was merely masturbating, it was one of the most intense orgasms i have ever experienced. It seemed to go on forever and i produced more fluid, more forcefully than i had ever done before. Was it worth waiting 74 days for? Nahhh…no orgasm is worth 74 days of blue balls.

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Whose Body is it Anyway?

boy — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 21:15:29 +0000

i recently had occasion to be punished (am still under the punishment actually) for an infraction that i won’t go into here as it doesn’t really add to the post. Suffice to say, LadyHotchKiss was not pleased with Her boy. i knew i was going to be punished, but there was no way to guess which direction the punishment might take as LadyH always comes up with unique punishments. They are rarely very punishing, however. She prefers punishments which teach something the sub/slave needs to learn or relearn. She did not tell me what She wanted me to learn from this punishment. i believe She’s waiting for me to tell what i have learned and will correct me if i’m wrong. Hence, the purpose of this writing.

Her punishment was a requirement that each time i touch my body, inadvertently or otherwise…any part of my body, lips, ears, hair, face, private parts, whatever… each time i touch myself and prior to the actual touching, i am to think to myself: “HotchKiss, i touch this body because You allow it.”

i have discovered there are at least three types of touching: a. Unconscious touching – think of having an itch. Your hand will scratch the itch without any conscious thought. b. – Inadvertent touching. You didn’t intend to touch yourself, your hand just brushed against your thigh while moving about. c. Intentional touching. You actually think about touching yourself before you do so. Washing yourself, personal hygiene, brushing your teeth or hair. You actually think about doing something before doing it.

So what have i learned. For one, i’ve learned that we touch ourselves an awful lot during the course of a day, most of it unconsciously or inadvertently. i’ve learned that if you don’t think of touching yourself prior to touching yourself, it is impossible to recite a mantra related to touching yourself. There was no way i could succeed at this tasking. All i could do was the best i can.

But there was a bigger lesson in all of this. When LadyHotchKiss took me as Her slave….when She took ownership of me, She took ownership of all of me. Mind, body and spirit. i understood this when it happened, but i don’t think i fully felt it. Not deep down in my bones. LadyHotchKiss owns this body. She imposed certain protocols to reinforce the concept, such as having to sit when urinating, masturbating only with permission, and not touching my genitals except for personal hygiene purposes. She, however, can and does do with my body whatever pleases Her. She owns it. The flip side of that though, is that i no longer own this body. i can only do with it that which She allows me to do with it. No more and no less. Taking Her mantra to heart, i have come to feel the truth of this in a way not previously felt.

She has excused, at times, a failure on my part to sit when urinating, especially if i were in a public and dirty restroom. And in the past, i have fudged a bit on not touching my genitals except for hygienic purposes. (my showers had become longer and longer, and my genitals extra squeaky clean) But after this exercise, this “punishment”…no more. If the restroom i’m in is dirty and i can’t clean the toilet seat, i will hover over it as women have to do, or i will find a cleaner rest room. My showers will take no longer than necessary and my genitals will be no cleaner than the rest of me when i am done.

This body belongs to Her and i will treat it as such. Taking care of it to the best of my ability, not abusing it, and using it only in ways allowed and approved by Her. The path She has set me on is taking me ever deeper into slavery, and i revel in it.

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